Here I sit drinking my morning coffee again. And reminding myself that life does and will have speed bumps. I guess it’s funny to think “Speed Bumps” when talking about 30 months from now. Or 910 days. However it does feel as though the brakes have been tapped. Funds got tight and some saved cash needs to go to a few day to day needs. We also have a past medical bill pop up that will also drain the bank for a bit. What does all this really mean? Not a lot it’s called LIFE. And no mater the amount of planning or thinking you do. It can and does catch you off guard sometimes.
For me, speed bumps are a hard part of life. I tend to not like them and even wish them away. Michelle, she gets it. She knows that they will happen, that you really can’t control them. So you just have to roll over them. Man do I wish that I had her understanding on this. Cause it makes me cranky.
It someways I feel that I need to go back to the drawing board. But is that really needed? Not really. We have time, we have each other and we have God. He wouldn’t have put us on this path as he has if it wasn’t meant to happen. Funny is though, that after the Jeep crash I was all doom and gloom. Right up until I saw the light that put us on a faster track. Before the wreck we were on a 5 year plan, or 1825 days! Double where we are today. No it don’t make it any easier, but it does high light our progress.
I’ve been trying so hard to make things happen in a few “large steps” and skip the “baby steps”. I just might (and I really hate it) have to take smaller steps. In doing so, it might not be as cost effective. But may be needed. Uggh adulting can be hard, and suck, and be expensive.
Am I loosing focus? Maybe a little. But I do know that “This too will pass”. Why do I personally find it so sticking hard to live day to day? I’m 43 years old and feel as I’ve wasted the better part of my years getting here. Always doing what pays the bills, or what others feel I should do. Never in the past had I stopped to simply smell the flowers and “Pick MY direction”. And here we are about to “Pick our Direction”, and go off to live life our way on OUR terms. But I still must wait. And be patient. I guess I can now understand how, a 64 year old that has worked their WHOLE life just to retire feels. When they get right about there and the retirement age gets pushed to 67.
I guess you could say, I’ve always been a “I want tomorrow Today” kinda person. I dream, I hope and I plan. Why you may ask? Cause I’m not always happy where I am today. Or who I am today. It always seems as today is never enough. And that today there are never enough hours. Or that there are never enough days in a week. I need to learn to slow down more. Slow down better. To be at peace in my own mind. But HOW??? That my friend is the magic question. I’m sick of working to just pay bills. I’m sick of just sittin here. I’m sick of wanting to see and experience MORE!
I want to see the world. I’ve always wanted to travel but never knew how. See I was a product of what I’ve talked so passionate about before. The killing of the dreams of our youth. And now that I’ve been so far off track to going forward that way. It’s HARD! Yes we (Michelle and I) are getting on track with that. But it don’t make it any more simple. We have bills, children and responsibilities. Thus why this Blog is here. To get us on track and keep us on track. To share with all of you out there that IT can be done, but it’s neither simple or quick.
We hope that through our frustrations, pains and miss directions it will help you. Have the faith to step out of the norm and Just do life on your terms. I guess some people (aka my loving wife) journals. Me I’ve come to Blog. Funny to say that cause over that last 3-4 years I’ve started pushing away from technology.
Any ways, that is where I find myself or better yet my mind today and this week. SO when you find that your life hits speed bumps. Remember “This to shall pass”. So till next time, stay blessed my friends. And by all means keep on A.G.E.ing!!